Long Time No Rant? and meditations on writing

So I took a break from this blog because pretty much all I was going on it was ranting. While it's nice to rant, it's also kind of mean. And irritating. Part of the problem is I tend to keep a lot of that kind of stuff to myself, because I'd rather be miserable than yell at someone and make them feel bad. Making people feel bad makes ME feel bad. Anyways, so that's the deal.

Except, lately I haven't really had anything to rant about. I've been on summer vacation, I'm not leading a WoW guild anymore (NEVER AGAIN), I'm not in school dealing with jerks in a quartet who can't seem to understand I don't have as much time as them to rehearse (yes, this really happened). Instead of ranting, I've been writing.

And I think I've found another passion in life.

Since I was basically an infant, I've known I was going to be a musician. My dad started me on trumpet when I was . . . four I think? I'll have to ask him. Then I started piano at age five and cello at age six. Cello is my main instrument now; I play trumpet and piano for fun and stress relief. Since I come from a musical family, I'm talented. I'm honestly not bragging or anything; it's just a fact. (This isn't bragging when you realize talent doesn't equivocate success or skill).

So I've trained to be a musician all my life. I've taken private lessons, I've practiced, I'm going to college as a cello performance major. It's fulfilling. It brings me happiness.

But it's different than what writings is for me.

Since last November I've been writing fanfiction for Dragon Age, and the act of that alone has taught me so much about writing, composition and structure. Now when I read, I analyze how sentences are formed. Now when I go outside, I don't see things so much as describe them in my head.

It's really strange, and it's messed with my direction on life. I've been a musician since before I was bathroom trained, and yet never in my time as a musician have I been able to practice all day. I do that with writing. I wake up, sit down at my laptop, and just...write. NONSTOP. It's insane. Fernando will come home from work, and I'll still be at it. I've NEVER had that kind of mad passion for music.

This partly came about because I had an idea for an original work that I've been developing while also working on my fanfic. Now fanfic is not only about the joy of writing and telling stories but about practice. About getting my technique down so I can execute my idea the absolute best that I can.

Sigh. I'm not sure what my rambling point is in all this.