At Peace

I think I spoke too soon. For the last few days I've been practicing cello more than I usually do. It's kind of like going on date with someone you had a huge fight with a few months ago. You patch things up, but things are tentative first. Then after awhile, you start to trust again. Is it weird that I have this kind of relationship with my cello? Probably. I never make any claims at normalcy.

Because that's boring, right? Yes.

Anyways, this year will be better though. I'm not doing quartet, I'm not doing any other ensemble aside from orchestra, which is required for music majors. I'm taking 5 classes, and my days all end around 3-4pm, which is perfect. That's enough time to practice for a few hours, come home and do homework. Do some work on my fanfics and my novel.

Fernando and I are going to Puerto Rico for a week. He hasn't seen his family in a year, and they all miss each other tons. I haven't seen them all in TWO years! It'll be nice to see them all sometime before the wedding next May.

Oh yeah! This year I have to plan our wedding. There's my part time job. Maybe I'll less of a girl or something, or maybe I'm lazy, but I'm not having as much fun planning the wedding as I think most women have.

Something Fernando likes to do is make lists. I'll find them all over the apartment when I'm cleaning. I'm a little less structured; kind of a fly by the seat of my pants kind of gal. When I go shopping, I just grab stuff I think we need and it works pretty well. But I might start making lists too, just to organize things in my brain. I might be getting older or some shit, but it feels like my brain doesn't expand with everything I take in anymore. which I kind of hate. I wish medical science would jump ahead another one hundred years and figure out how to make aging less awful. I'm fine with death; it's the whole process of slowly falling apart that I find repulsive.

Wow, anyways, my point is I'm going to start making lists.

STUFF TO ACCOMPLISH THIS YEAR
1. Don't be an asshole when it comes to practice. Do at least an hour a day, preferably 2 to 3.
2. Take notes during lessons with Cheng-Hou. He's a patient teacher, but I'm not going to do myself any favors forgetting half the things he talks about in lessons.
3. Go to class. Yes, for me this is a struggle. I hate class. I think it has to do with an ingrained hatred of classrooms. Finding a seat is always kind of a stressful activity, because I like to sit in the back by the door, which means I have to get there like a half hour early since most people like the back so they can goof off without getting in trouble. I don't like exposing my back to people and I like being by an easily accessible exit in case someone should go crazy and start shooting. I think it's weird that I think like this.
4. I don't really need to take notes, but I'm going to try and pay better attention in classes.
5. Get Bs. I'm not dumb, but I'm lazy. That needs to stop.
6. WIN THE CONCERTO COMPETITION. Pretty self explanatory
7. Don't procrastinate with homework. Easier said than done, honestly. Especially for me, since I work really well under pressure.
8. Have my spring recital repertoire under my fingers by Christmas. That way I can spend Jan-March just polishing.

I think that's about it. I do all that, I should have a pretty successful year.