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Once again I delved into the world of blogging. I kept a blog when I was a freshman in college, but after I faceplanted out of school I fell out of the practice of journaling, mainly because there was nothing about that particular time I wanted to remember. But now I've decided that momentary self inspection (in the form of a blog) could be healthy, and useful for keeping my mind active.

I'll warn you right now though, there isn't really anything going on in my life...just yet. Things are in a holding pattern, waiting for a few big moments to come to pass, and then it'll start chugging along again. Well, I shouldn't say that there isn't anything going on in my life, just that there isn't anything NEW. Why do I sound so petulant in this paragraph? Ugh.

A lot hinges on this audition in 2 weeks. Whether or not I'll be accepted back to Western to finish my degree in cello performance is an event in of itself, but on top of that, there is the matter of scholarship and whether I'll gain any. I don't think I will- I sound like a hack. I've always been a hack cellist, and I don't think that has changed.

Well, I should try to be fair to myself. The Bach sounds quite good overall. And the concerto is about 70% good/ 30% questionable. I don't even want to talk about the etude though. In fact, today I should just practice the etude and nothing else.

I spent my whole night trying to think of a name for this blog, and now that I chose one, I'm kind of irritated at it. It's pretty stupid.

I had a blogspot a few years ago, and my friend Dan had created this AWESOME format for it, so I'm going to resurrect that format because it is just too cool to be wasted on a graveyard blog. Cheers to you, my friend.

Maybe I'll be able to convince Fernando to blog again also- he has a very philosophic mind- his would be the kind of blog you can't wait to read the updates just because they make you think. I can't generate that kind of interest. My mind is too tangental now. All my focus is being used up for the audition.