It's a strange feeling- I'm both scared and excited. I've been out of school for over a year, and it feels like much longer. I feel disconnected to the routines of it all, the requirements. I'm afraid I'm too old to be able to be competitive with the younger people. I mean....I'm 23. That's pretty old to still be working on your undergrad. And this is pretty much my last chance. If I screw up this time, that's it. I can't go back, I can't get another chance. It's do or die now. It's scary.
And at the same time, I'm so impatient. I've been so bored and antsy the last few months I've hardly known what to do with myself, and now I'm going to be a student again. I'm going to do it right this time. I'm going to pay attention to my schoolwork, practice for my lessons, be friendly with the other people in school. I'm not going to be such a failure this time.
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